Everybody wants it, but not all of us know what it is.
Some of us associate it with being in the company of a loved one, some of us link it to our favourite material possession while some equate it to a certain experience: travelling to a place, an accomplishment of some sort, or a kind of fragrance, maybe even a taste.
When I was in my early twenties, I was always super anxious about turning a year older. But now, I am starting to appreciate the absence of: insecurities, the incessant worry of not being cool enough and the over-zealousness of wanting to be accepted by anyone and everyone.
Feelings that are so tragically linked to the memories of my careless youth.
I attributed that progress to one distinct value that, Alhamdulillah, I started to treasure when I turned 25.
Knowing and treasuring my Self-worthiness.
I finally did it. K and I finally recorded my first YouTube video… and I won’t lie. I am super nervous about the thought of putting it out there, and sharing it.
But I also have to say that I had a lot of fun doing it, and even more so when I am speaking about something that is extremely close to my heart.
If there is one thing that K and I are not, it’s romantic. We are not the “gaze into each other’s eyes” nor the “You are my entire world” kind. If anything, we are two individuals who are the bestest of friends who wants the best for each other and who simply love one another for Allah’s sake.
For the longest time, I thought everything has to be in big, grand gestures. Love has to be loudly proclaimed, and achievements have to be substantial. “Go big or go home” – they say.
But recently, the small things have been winning over my heart. Slowly, it has taught me things; important lessons that I sorely needed in those exact moments. And through its unassuming, almost bordering child-like innocence, the small things have added splashes of vivid colors to my everyday.
My husband and I have been “debating” about this a lot.
He wants me to try to start making videos and uploading them on YouTube while I very much prefer to stick to writing. He gave some pretty good points in his pitch (not everyone have the time to read blog posts, I get to spread my message and help more girls – which is really what I want to do with my life – if we use Video as a medium, among other things) but I have been extremely resistant.
I’m going to let you in on a secret… I’ve started learning how to dance.
It all began when I was trying to find an alternative to running. Every time I think about running in this cold Moroccan weather, I just feel super, super, super lazy. I knew I had to find a substitute for my cardio, so I thought that maybe dancing would be fun alternative to try out!